Friday, September 29, 2006

i reach home at 7? and now thn i can rest? whn i m damn damn tired today le? wat kinda life is tis u tel me? is jus so not rite..............
tired so after arts jiu faster ca=ome hm dun meet mum and sis in khs liaox cuz is really damn tired.... AND! reach hm jiu go put clothes in washing machine.... wash dishes.... clean the dining table and cups everywhere to wash... is not trying to complain or wat but there's really alot of things to voice out i really got lots to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i m very tired i m really tired kk? but whn me and mum is doing housework wat is my sis doing? i start doing housework since p3? and wat is her age? p5 already and yet everytime whn i everyone is busy doing sth wat is she doing!!! i dunno how to say to others, they may think i m the elder one she is the younger one ah.... so tat s tat.... but i really dunno wat is the real rite thing? is she suppose to help up too? or are me and my mum fated to do all these by ourselves? washing ur own plate and cup is jus so simple and compare to washing the whole family de dishes it is so much of a saving time already???
i dunno wat to say there's really so much to say BUT! the more i say.... the more sad i ll b... i had been so moody these days?? as i had been lik almost nth to say? and whenever i m in silent, it means i m in temper or moody... think tat is how a genie react whn she is moody bah...
speechless speechless.... this world is jus too not fair...........................
btw results get back le..... and tat is another long story which i dun which to think bout anymore.... i ll simply cry immediately..
~end~

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genie_ng out
@ |7:43 PM|
Friday, September 22, 2006

hoho! what a happy day! 1 more paper to go and prelims will be over!! yeah!~ can't wait till that day.. today i was feelin kinda high cuz hist was FINALLY over.. the huge load of mass memorising was making me crazy.. real crazy.. heave a sign of relief when it was over=) den aft tt went hougang mall with jeanne.

we ate at JACK'S PLACE! that place was cool, i mean the atmosphere. veri relaxing.. the food was rather okay. they served chocolate ice cream for desert.. i dun really fancy ice cream tt much.. LOL.. jeanne and i had a hard time eating the ice cream. it was so stupid lahz.. i mean if u give the ice cream to a three year old kid, he will like gobble or finish it in no time and we are lyk so.. haha.. dunno how so say.. lyk focing us to eat some hard, tastless, unedible food.. haha.. =D den we went library cuz jeanne wan to find her art book.. den after tt we shop for a while den went home!

PS: sun is gonna be s'pore idols final! definately not gonna miss tt!=D

~ClAuDiA~

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genie_ng out
@ |9:35 PM|

hahax come to blog again le!! today is the last 3rd paper for me.. but i m rather happy today ne... though onli slp for 3 hrs.... =D after hist paper jiu go hougang plaza wid tong lei le!! hahax we very funny lorx!!!!!!! we go jack's place eat ne.... and by then is damn damn hungry liao lorx... thn somemore so slow and most impt!!! NO SOUP!!!!! damn it sia.... tot will hav soup lorx... but they say change liaox... dhange to two scop of ICE CREAM!!!! lol lorx shld b hapy de... but WE HATE ICE CREAM!!! ^o^

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genie_ng out
@ |5:01 PM|
Thursday, September 14, 2006

to YOU:
okay! this is it and i can't stand u any longer!hate the sight of you, hate talking to you, hate everything in you!!urgh! y must u always treat a bunch of us like idoits?Y must u always take advantage of us? does that give u a sense of pleasure?a sense of security?! or what?!! tell me!!here the story:todae u ask hh to accompany to the library after skool and when she said she is goin to her fren hse study., u immediately turn to me and ask me to accompany u. okay.. fine.. i am ok with that but after skool i heard a different story , saying that u goin to eat with hh they all cuz they plan to eat first then study and u said u are gonna join them!

what is this?this is plainly taking advantage!! all these while i have been enduring u, not saying anything but let me tell u ok.. this is getting TOO MUCH!this is definetely not the first time alr ok?!enuff means enuff!!not only did u took advantage of us but u also love to break up best friends!what is this?!u tell me?u longed for accompany and hate to be alone but u are really really too much kays! please stop indulging yourself in self-pity and make ppl listen to u!!this is getting far too much!after u make us angry ,u will pretend that absolute nothing has happened! think u are that great huhx? U ARE NOT OK?!

u did all these w/o thinking that u have hurt so many friends around u.i really dun understand what is going on in your mind!. i find that i am so stupid to still stick by you!.AND.. please stop all these taking advantage of ppl here and there.. u will end up without knowing that your friends will leave u one by one!I HAD ENUFF ALR!UGRH!

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genie_ng out
@ |3:35 PM|
Tuesday, September 05, 2006

ok.... i m going to bear with it again..... y...... y is my holiday always block by sth de..... i tot tis holi wun had anything to let me bother bout other than study study and study..... but y mus grandma fall down and makes an obstacles in my mugging hard studying again!!! :( of cuz i m not trying to blame her who wanna fall down lah i ask u.... but y?????????? y is it now?
today.... gonna fu her here and there... other than the usual hosework i did i m doing her chores too le.... i m even COOKING!!! though tat is a gd experience too at least next time i noe how to cook DELICIOUS dishes.... but..... not tis time pls... i m trying very hard to conc on studying.........................................................................................................................................
tis is not going to b rite......... :( and moreover..... think... how much i did din show to others how much i did..... no one noe the effort i put in no matter in doing hw... studying.... doing house chores helping my grandma and etc etc etc..... i m jus lik a.... genie in the bottle? helping others in the dark but no one sees.......
tis is going to b bad................................... y mus i care bout it so much!!!!!
okie i cun tahan le.... my eyes are boiling hot to the edge of dozing off anytime.....
grandma, u mus recover quickly ok? dun b lik grnadpa.... we cannot take it so much de.... :'(

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genie_ng out
@ |12:15 AM|
Monday, September 04, 2006

WORX!!! it had been so so so soooooooooooooooooooooooo long since my last post. cun blame me... sec 4 life is full of business (busyness)... no more prefects... no more cca... no more dance.... now there is no more piano lesson since my grade 5 piano practical examination...
but now is all full of revising and studying.... life is going to b so sian and miserable.... it s no more a bed of rose.... but this is the only path to the future.... hav to bear with it no matter wat... so gonna buck up!!!! pia till the end!!!! mug hard and JIA YOU!!!!!! p(^.^)q
now is sep holi, so can write here finally... and before tis week there are so many problems surrounding me.... sometimes i may felt so blessed whereas under a certain condition or period... i felt as if everything is against me.... there s nothing to hold on to...
now in tis stage.... sec 4, emotion can b so so big ups and downs.... i may fel hapy for a second and the next second i will think of unhappy thing and will start to get upset.... maybe tats life of sec 4 bah... will b thinking of study... thn suddenly think of all the classmates.... and fel sad cuz going to leave thm soon.... there s not going to b their laughters in the future and all this close frenz of mine... promise to stay in contact in the future.... and i really hope tat we really can ne.... :) hmmz....
okie... so much things to say say bout tis yr de me bah... me after june holi promise not to slp again in class and i really did it le!!! and there s improvements in all subj!! at least me ownself think so bah... i will continue to mug hard de. =)
and hahax i really dream everyday lorx..... is really almost everyday sia.... lik a daily chore lik tat.... makes me kept hinking of my dreams.... most of the dream got my classmates ne.... thn all very very long lik a story lik tat sia.. there s even dream in dream!!!
very fast it ll b after o level le... and very fast the graduation high tea will come.... thur will b going out with tong lei cluadia to study and after study go buy our high tea de dress, yea!!! but oso very fast i ll b leaving tis sch le... hmmz... okie lots to say de but really no time le... gonna go pia liaox....
JIA YOU everyone!!!!!!! cya!!!! ^_^

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genie_ng out
@ |6:05 PM|
Monday, May 29, 2006

haix... it has been ages since i write the last blog.... and it really was a very long pause...
wellx... really very busy nowadays... nono is all these while.... there's no time to really relax myself..... there's onli more and more rooms for improvements, in my studies.....
mid yr had jus gone by.... and my results wasn't at all gd.... and i really flunk my mid yr very very badly.... cried 4 times in sch on tat day tat we take our result.... cuz there is onli more and more of disappointments..... no excitemment no satisfactory....
many said is because i din hav the time to study... too much activities going on.... well... i agreed and agreed perfectly.... theres's the GJ concert... there's the prefect investiture.... there's all tis and tat.... haix.... since the start of tis yr.... there's chingay.... and performance... i had stopped dance lesson in DES.... but piano lesson stil continuing... cuz tis yr i m going to take exam for grade 5 piano practical. and hahax ms chew say i m in for a concert on 25th of june! hahax 2 pieces.... wonder if i can do it not heex.
haha alot of things going on lah.... and today or rather yest... is MT O LEVEL!!!! and tmr or rather today is eng prelim oral... hahax.... here to write blog cuz haha to prac eng? hahax
haix... alot of things going on lah.. no time to say it all... gonna go slp... haha or else i may even slp half way thru the ORAL! hahax... i slp during exams lorx....
k gtg now.....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:52 PM|
Friday, January 27, 2006

is already 2006! yet i now thn come write.... haix...... busy sia.... from the start of tis yr jiu so busy liao... :( tis yr o level liao le ne..... wonder... wonder..... haix..... studies..... stil ok ok but stil lik slping in class sia haha
alot to say de lah.... but think .... for the time being unable to say tat much.... and very tired too after the chingay prac jus now...... tmr performing two times.... for cny celebrations..... in sch and in punggol pr..... omg... haha happy new yr everyone.... all the best for tis yr wor... :D

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genie_ng out
@ |12:50 AM|
Sunday, December 18, 2005

it had been a long long time since i write again.... and it had also been a long long time since i m able to get a gd slp....
thru out the holidays..... i had been so busy even slping, i m thinking bout bance movements.... going in and out of des for 3 wks.... dance exam... performance..... and today..... finally... the competition.... i m so worm out.... i really long for today..... gonna have a gd slp..... it seems tat i d stil hav a wk of holi.... but nono is perfectly wrong.... tis wk isn gonna let me off still... needa go for sch dance prac...... haix..... the whole of holi, i had been dancing.... even with injuries and so.... wearing out and sweating lik hell.... longing to go hm everyday willing to stay at hm whole day, whn some others of my frens are so much of a wanna get out of their hm to go other where else..... but at least, finally can quratine from des for awhile.... haha
hmm... stil got lots to say ne.... but haha everytime say got lots to say... end up stil din say..... really no time to say.... gtg draw draw now.... haha

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genie_ng out
@ |10:34 PM|
Friday, December 09, 2005

haix.... yest... in sgh.... cried till lik dunno wat..... why m i such a crybaby.... the more i cry...... the more the person i c will b worried...... tat s why i kep dun wanna visit her in the hospital.... i scare i ll cry.... the sight i lok at her.... :( but things still turn up so..... i step into the rm.... i saw her, she lok at me i hold her hand i call her, she slowly wipe her eye, the din tok, i oso din tok, my face screwed, and turn and go to cry at the side..... i dunno wat is it tat s wrong with my crybaby emotional charateristic.... god mother, is so healthy all the while since she tak care of me.... now she is lying there, with the irritating cancer lying on her.... she is so care so gd a person she is..... she is the most healthy person i c, yet because of the genes.....
whn i get back to her side 2nd time..... i tried to smile.... i smile to her, cuz i wana her to c me smile and not my teary face..... but..... the more i smile..... the more she start to tok..... the more she say to me.... the more my smile become awkward the more i start to cry the more the tears drop the more i cun tok..... the more i wanna go out to cry..... i cun stop my tears, whn she tell me to sit down there i go there, thn go out of the rm to cry...... haix.... wats wrong..... and the things she say to me........... pls.... o pls save her.....
the 3rd time i went in.... is to say gd bye i gtg go off for dance.... i m in a stage of a darm person.... cannot tok..... saw her.... i silent.... she say go dance bah.... i nod my head.... i tell her jian qiang..... but the one tat is suppose to jian qiang is me..... yet i din.....
tat is why i wanna go and see her badly..... but i m avoiding every chance to c her.... as i m so much afraid.... tis ll happen.... a teary scene... ll make her fel even worse..... but.... gan ma..... u really mus get well.... genie...... genie here....... grant u.... u ll recover de..... jia you....

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genie_ng out
@ |10:59 AM|
Wednesday, December 07, 2005

worx.... lots to say, but let me say bout today first bah... :)
1st time in escape teen park..... it is more lik feeling to escape once i played with the first one.... tat pirate ship thingy tat one.... wah.... i fel lik vomitting sia.... haha but i din..... thn 2nd took it, i m so much better than 1st time... 3rd time, i think i m numb with it..... thn we played almost all the items there, except for the under maintenance rainbow thingy, the children the train and areoplane, and tat dangerous cannot play de alfa.... and the middle ned to pay de thingy.... ya.... we played all others....
we ar lik mad, cuz we play tat car for 3 times le, the trainer or watever ppl there already recognised us.... thn we played flipper 3 times too.... 1st time, we found it real nice... after a period of time, we played it 2 times continupuously.... is rewall yvery nice, as u can shout till very suan, unlik tat ship one, wanna shout cannot shout... thn wah... tat watever pepsi or wat de? tat turn ah turn de, tat is so shiok we shout from begining, continuously, no brking till the end... is so so scary..... haha o ya... the funniest part is tat hauted hs.... omg.... we are damn funny...we had already step into the house, yet, whn we saw a bloody hand there, thn saying "hold my hand..." thn we abit scare liao, thn fel tat behind the door got sth fishy.... thn yt go c, is another "ghost" thn tat bloody hand stil there, with long fingers.... bla bla.... stil ok, but we all dun dare to step further in mah, thn tat bloody hand de master ah, hop out and we hanven even c how he lok lik already jump out of the hs liao... except yt there, still saying" hey i saw ur face liao..." haha thn we din go in le lah.... scare dou scare to death le.... well everything sound so gd , but sure got one of us not felingng well de, vict and gor abit giddy.... poor $16.50 ne haha
okie le lah... stil got lots to write ah.... dunno whn can finish typing all....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:46 AM|
Tuesday, December 06, 2005

SOSOSO tired! but very hapy le.... cuz today dance exam over!!! wo ho! :) though i noe the result isn going to b very gd..... maybe not even good..... but at least i noe.... i did wat i can le.... ahahah nervous until..... b4 goin in jiu cry liao.... ahaha lik last yr lik tat.... me lik tat de.... haha dunno why .... emotional bah.....
wel.... exam over but stil got sundazy de performing and dance competition on 17th......... but really a relieve liao..... tis exam..... wow really tak my so many de time, but is gd...... well.. thing got its gd and bad ne.... tmr going to enjoy....
btw today haha after exam.... we 4 are lik.... yea!!! thn is lik wow... every of us de big stone drop till dep dep ne...... thn we help up le go eat eat wok wok tok tok buy buy haha wow... really.... tis exam dun actually matter how gd we get and is the proces.... of learning.... struggling.... haha hurt our legs... hands bla bla.... slp walk ah..... mentally corrupted ah.... haha ya.... really mus enjoy the process ne.....
wa... really very tired le... so long never type here..... alot to write but... really very tired...... gtg :)

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genie_ng out
@ |12:32 AM|
Thursday, November 24, 2005

so long din write liao.... lots to say and lots to write.... type.... bla bla bla....
time is stil lik rushing me.... and my future is once again.... being tilted by somebody's saying... it's tilting and tilting... i wanna it to stop.... pls! brin me to my future str away.... tis is no good....
:(
haix...... pls stop....

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genie_ng out
@ |1:15 AM|
Saturday, November 19, 2005

before saying all again.... wanna haha tell u al... haha no matter how hungry u ar or watever.... dun dun dun eat or drink toothpaste..... :p me ah... today swallow toothpaste .... whn rinsing my teeth..... haha all the water gush too fast, all swallow..... with the toothpaste sia.... omg.... thn at first okie..... whn reach sch suddenly omg stomachache tilll wanna die.... visit the toilet 3 times ne..... haha
okie time to heave everything out...... there s the prefect camp coming.... the dance exam there..... waiting..... the dance prac frm both sides..... hanging.... the time schedule crush even more cham than traffic jam..... cun help it..... dun lik it.... cun stop it.... haix.... no choice.... stil the same old sentence.... faster after next yr..... wanna my future to start so much anew and goodly from tat time onwards..... next yr will b rushng and rushing....... hope i can bear and hope i can endure ne....
thx all frens tat care of me and giv me courage and ya.... :)

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genie_ng out
@ |12:49 AM|
Monday, November 14, 2005

i m so happy..... today really found a "gui ren" haha.... an artist.... ya..... i really see him as an artist.... he is an unpopular artist, but he draws really verynicely and ya.... so impressed.... i m honoured to be his youngest student... :P
stil very busy... and haha going to corrupt any moment..... but hav been controling.... so ya.... jus let it be bah...... it will b over de.... jeanne..... knowing tat many haven given up me... noe tat many stil cares.... tis is the best coax already... thanks everyone.....
noe the new spreading for the tarot card.... hey..... todany suan with my cousin... ya... i really hav the way the path for art in the future.... i hav to wk hard... and ya....

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genie_ng out
@ |1:16 AM|
Thursday, November 10, 2005

time to get started? i dun fel at al to.... haix.... dunno wat to do.... dunno how i can help myself.... things are changing changing and turning twisting.... nth seems jus so simple.... nth is jus so.... smooth....
believing in myself sudenly seems jus so hard..... believing others seems... impossible.... haix..... dunno wat i wanna....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:44 PM|

u ll nv noe wat ll hapen until it really happen... dun b so sad til u really noe wat ll it be....
i dunno wat i m doing now le.... and duno how i can.... lik live a happier life for now? loking at my schedule onli... let me cried every night to slp.... haix.... i wanna do so much.... yet.... i hav no the time..... and dun wanna waste anyone de time... neither to frustrate anyone....
the tarots... they ar lik the little genie in my genie heart....
sometimes... human jus hav to smile.... fooly..... as in.... smile to him/her self...thn... it ll make one fel better.....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:11 AM|
Monday, November 07, 2005

dunno wat to say.... all these activities.... are making me.... lose my frens...... ar making me... corrpting.... are making me.... finding no interests in any things.... everything is going the wrong path.... the world is not as simple as ya.... encountering so much prob... yet... no body understands..... no ones knows....
correct i think.... genie in the botttle is jus right for me.... it is the best descriptioin le.... nobody knows... wat i had struggled... in the bottle... helpless.... and lost.... nth i can did to make myself happier....

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genie_ng out
@ |10:50 PM|
Sunday, November 06, 2005

still having a hard time... organising my time.... today actually wanna go nlb to borrow some books regarding prefect camp games....worx... for a new hand lik me... it does was tough.... haix.... but ya... everything has it beginning.... i dun help it... it is oso a way to learn.... ya.....
still imaginging my future.... but the mor i go deeper in the thoughts of my future, the more... ya.... restless helpless and impatient to reach there.... i will hav lots of choices of jobs which i can do... but .... hmm... dunno.... stil wondering..... i fel scare... i dun fel lik studying tell me how to survive these bridging course and the dunno how many hundreds days coming.....
the tarots.... they scare me to death but pull me to safe.... i believe thm.... they din bluff me.... they helped me along... they guded me... i dunno whether or not to ya... believe it as if it is my life.... or should i jus.... ya.... take it and leave it......

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genie_ng out
@ |11:36 PM|
Thursday, November 03, 2005

yest... had the 2nd eye surgery liao... haix.... but haha got improvement, i din cry ye.....
hmm... today is holi too.... actually is holi already, but for our sch, sec3 stil got bridging course ne..... haix.....
today got prefect meeting de... but cuz of the eye... hai yo.... cannot go... jus giv thm the ideas i had and go liao.... fel so.... haix.... y tis eye brin me so much prob ne..... wa... i yest night slp for so long ne....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:51 PM|
Monday, October 31, 2005

arg.... lesson today.... dunno why.... dun fel lik studying really...... jus wanna faster reach next next yr.... hai yo.... those who read my blogs sure very tired of me saying tis sentence.... dunno whn can i stop saying it and instead, say "yea! today is a great day too! i hav done another mural ! learn another new dance ! played aonther new piano song! and haha had a great tea with glisten inc and frens sia....." jus whn will my blog appear such a paragraph? tis is so impatient...... haix.....
had lesson today stil, whn many sec had holi already..... i was almost late.... as the bus omg man... real slow lor..... is lik omg waited so long whn the bus reached the busstop, is jus nice, 7.45 am.... and whn crossed the traffic, heard the bell reang, i faster run in sia..... thn as runing saw cynthia, haha thn we ran in together...... thn sing the national anthem at the side haha omg first time late ye..... hai yo... thn as waiting for bus ah, haha sms claud.... tell her shit lah haven aboard bus yet.... haha thn ya.....
thn after sch, actually glisten inc go eat lunch in rp kfc de..... but at the end onli me claud.... ya thn zhi hui, yun ting and zi yi.... ya...
thn dunno wat to say liao.... now whole body ache...... cannot tink

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genie_ng out
@ |10:21 PM|
Sunday, October 30, 2005

finally one mor exam over liao..... left one more exam to go...fast fast bah.... cuz... really wanna buck up in studies, do well for the 5 gd subj.... so tat i can go to nafa, with gd grades..... really wanna go nafa as soon as possible.... really.....
　　haix.... stil busy stil busy.... got prefects thingy, got dance exam..... haha used to it liao wors.... whn go nafa le, time will b mor relax liao, can one day do all 4 things.... tat's so great..... and i can imagine, having tea with glisten inc.... and all those bosom frens still..... thn whn my sis reach sec, go music sch liao, and i m stil in nafa, wa.... we can meet everyday to hav tea haha
missed those lunch with glisten inc.... long time no eat lunch together le... all beczuse of me lah... haha.... busy busy... haix.....
　　dunno wat to say le.... i noe i hav lots to say de.... but really ya.... tiring..... gtg
lok forward to yr after next yr...

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genie_ng out
@ |10:30 PM|
Friday, October 28, 2005

i found tat.... my whole life.... i m waiting for sth.... every different time... i m waiting for different things.... tis cycle is getting so sick.... :(
i had waited so long.... and it dun always means tat, tat sth ll come to me.... y m i waiting..... okie gd... now i m waiting to die.... think every human beings are... isn't it? but well.. haix.... die liao oso dunno lll reach wat place.... hai yo... is tis an excuse from me for not wanna to die? haha haix... dunno wat crap i toking le....
today gotten back report bks liao.... and on knowing tat some teachers wun be teaching next yr liao, makes my tears energetic again..... knowing tat today is the last day of sch for many.... lik sec 1 2 and oso mos reluctantly, sec 4 ts...... today is their las day in sch.... as in if they ar not in for any other activities in nvss, they ar from today onwards, out of nv... whn loking at thm, outting up the thousands cranes they folded yest, makes me fel lik crying deeply.... i noe i ll miss thm.... i noe i will...... but well..... next yr... we ar the eldest liao... sec 4 le..... haix.... sec 4 tis word.... seems so near and so far from me.... i dunno why.... but some feeling inside me.... simply makes me fel so......
tmr is piano exam already..... i dunno why i fel so excited and fel so tired on hearing tis.... is lik my mood and emotions, ar sitting in the fence..... dun ask me y... if i noe why... i wun b blogging....
i found me changing... from time to time... lets say... last time... i m quiet lik a mouse..... now... i m lik... a chatterbox.... stil got ppl teling me to kep quiet... wats wrong with me.... i dun understand.... some ppl say... i m getting naughty le..... i fel so sad on hearing tat.... wat makes thm fel so? i m terribly upset on hearing such things into my ear.... once tis hit my ear drum.... i become the old me.... quiet lik mouse..... as if.... isolated from the world... from ppl al around me... i dun quite get it... really..... haix.....
i dunno who i m ... out of the sudden...
i dunno wat i had been loking for... i fel such a fool.... i fel lik... i m not in tis world... i fel transparent from others... as if i m not alive..... i fel lik... ya... i m jus a genie... whn ppl ned me.... they call on me.... whn there is nth there.... i m lik ya... disappeared.... and lik in the bottle... is lik.... i dunno... i dunno why i fel so much of a ya.... dunno why i have so much complains.... i fel my smiles.... all fake.... tis few days..... or recently..... who can brin back my real smile? the smile tat..... is wat a genie is to have on her face? a smile tat... jeanne...... tis gal.... had long lost and mind u... she missed it so camn much.......

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genie_ng out
@ |7:57 PM|
Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Genie under the bottle.... lost in the space.... wanna a corner to hide.... from the harsh reality of the world.....
dunno wat i worrying... i think i m mad..... i can.... tis min, i m happy like crazy, excited bout sth...... another min, i m sad as if end of world lik tat? i dunno wat exactly is my feeling now.... i m lik..... freeze away from my feelings and my moods ar round and round.... not a merry go round but.... thousands and millions of horses, galloping around me in cirlces and cirlcles.....
lots of things to handle, lots of things to settle.... lots of things to think, lots of things to noe..... lots of things to rmb, lots of things to suffered with, lots of things to put aside, lots of things to b invited..... lots of things to.... arg...... lots of things..... :(
it isn't time for me to shed tears..... i hav no right to shed any little drop of tears..... now wat i long for, ar two things..... to go to slp..... and to go to my future..... i rather, i m in a dream now..... pls wake me up..... i m always slping..... but dreams or not dreams, true of false..... i hav no idea if they ar of any..... heavens noes...... but we dun......
whn u ar lost, meaning u ar lost..... there ar things u ned... u ned a compass to direct u..... but y din u think..... where exactly is that compass u loking for..... and how to get it....?
clock and compass.... they ar so so so much a like? did anyone tot bout tat? most of thm.... or rather, originally.... they ar all circular... they both hav " hands" to point a points...... for me..... my time and my directions to go.... they ar mixed.... they ar so very connected.... cun help describing..... yap.....
wat the tarot says.... sound so much of sense..... but whn they ar harsh, they ar harsh..... u never noe......

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genie_ng out
@ |10:53 PM|
Tuesday, October 25, 2005

lost again..... but lik found another direction too....
tis sat is theory exam ready..... tis few days... gonna pin ah...... thn after sat... another big burden dropped.......
well... today cdp lesson... ws again, and my prob again.... cuz it tells us to write down ur future de career.... thn i ask mrs chia.... can write mor than 3? she say sure.... y not? thn tis is wat i wrote.... " murals decoration artist, piano teacher, art teacher/designer, dance teacher, writer...." ha ha tats alot... but ya.... tats me..... yap.....
haix... dunno wat i wanna do sia...... stupid... found myself stupid lik haix.... shit..... haix..... :(
btw... tarot cards... why ar u so sensative! u ar so so u noe? cun help believeing u.... such a gd guidiance, and i m sure to make each of u .... my guardian angels, friens... :)
lots to say no time......

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genie_ng out
@ |10:37 PM|
Sunday, October 23, 2005

haix.... had been really very pissed and stressed..... i noe why but i dunno wat i m doing...really.... i cun find an excuse for myself.... to leave tis world.... which i actually do hav alot.....
i fel lik leaving away al tis things..... they ar.... pulling me to where i hate.... and the time whn i detest...... haix...... tis is the onli words tat can make me mor confy.... haix... haix... haix......
living in the bottle is always a great idea, but it always fail to brin peace to me.... ppl will b knocking on the wall of the bottle.... time will be ticking the cover of the bottle away to get me out of there..... thn the stupid door to my world.... is never had been seen..... even do.... it is in my dream.... and i cun get into my dream as much wasn it.... i ll surely b waken up......
things....ar so so messy once again.... as if i had never ocurs such prob b4 lik tat, which i do!!!
jus lok at my schedule i can c my days... collapsing.... to deep deep down there.... cun help it.... and it is not the end yet..... exams lor... they had gone and left me with those results and two mor exams.... to go.... and i m stress... and i m under pressure which i dunno how many had gone thru b4? i had cca dance, sch prefect piano and dance sch de dance... al crush together....u tell me how can i divide myself and go to all 4 places together.... i m gonna to b lik 5 ma fen shi.... i dunno wat i can do.... lik wat... right hand go sch dance.... one hand go sch prefect.... right leg go dance sch and one leg go piano ah? siao liao lor.... so i m lik.... late for certain thing and left early for certain thing... and even worse late for the same thing and left early for it too..... i gonna smile and tell teacher.... when i m actually crying lik hell inside..... cuz i wanna go there de!!! but is lik everything crush together lik in the traffic junction.... imagine in a cross-traffice, there is 4 ambulance..... on the 4 roads..... is emergency.... with okie let say one was going to giv birth, one is going to die.... one is dun cure will go suicide one is wanna reach there as fast as possible or dead..... thn how? they ride at the same time.... at a cros traffic.... with the same speeding speed..... and the same value...... they ride and thn becuz cross trafic, they crashed onto each other..... thn? die lor.....
leave tis world is so easy, jump down where i m now..... drink any poison thingy....... cut my nerve...... everything as easy as abc.... but why m i stil here..... i.... jus simply dun understand.... wasn't i waiting for sth? i felt so stupid.... to leave tis world....j us becoz of tis period of stress? a long period lah.... gonna bear with these 3 months.... next yr there ar obstacles right ahead too..... tell me how to get rid of thm? well..... haix... dunno...... i m so much of a waiting to get to life after o level onli ah...... so is lik.... my whole life.... will onli b lik calm and smooth traffic after o level mah?
engrossed in my tarot cards..... i infered so much thru it.... but i was so much of an afraid..... to ask bout my future..... wat if the tarot card is " night mare" or sth..... negative.... tell me how to face??? but i had to face it wasn it? but if tis is so... i ll try with al my might.... asking the cards again and again... tilll there is an answer, tat can allow and support me to live on.....
i m stil a genie... but my power was being sucked by al obstacles.... live or leave...... there ar too much ans if i was asked.......

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genie_ng out
@ |11:10 PM|
Friday, October 21, 2005

hav gotten back my eoy results.... and wel.. i cried.... on the day i get my papers back....
tis is so stupid wasn't it... but this is really disaappointing.... i dunno if i m hard wroking in the wrong way, or i din put any effort at al?
i was lik under the bottle.... dun wanna go into the bottle? cuz.... cun face myself.... haix..... the thoughts of retaining.... scare me to death..... wonders and wonders... if i ll reatain.... but whn got back my combine results today, and try adding thm up.... with the mid yr, it is jus so heng heng tat i wun retain.... glisten inc family.... i wanna go up with u al.... dun wanna b alone.....
but anw, if i really get retained... i hav got myelf clear, i wanna go straight to nafa.... dun care.... tat wasn all tat bad..... i can get in thru portfolio interview, and can b of the same batch as my senior..... and do wat i lik and wanted...... haix..... tat was wonderful.... but nth is perfect.....
okie... well... exams ar over and ahead ar more exams.... dance and theory exams.... driving me mad again..... thn nov.... we sec 3s gonna hav lessons, and get prepared for next yr..... tat big thing.... O LEVEL... mr lee said... those who reatain.... enjoy as much as u can during holi.... those who heng heng get up..... mus work hard ah work hard.... well.... hope i really can... ya ... u noe..... do sth to wat i had done and plan sth for wat i shld do?
okie... tmr.... we ar going to do cip.... go to blocks opp of school.... to collect newspapers and things... tat can b recycled... yap.... dunno if it ll b fun not? but sure tired.... and wonder if i can ya.... cuz jus now dance until.... hee hee really very pain.... the muscles and the heel...... yap..... hope it ll b better tmr....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:44 PM|
Tuesday, October 18, 2005

worx..... yest is a fun day..... a tiring day too.....
we glisten inc go outing! hee hee to plaza singapura well.... in the morning i got art exam mah.... thn slp at 23o am mah... so tiring lor.... but hor to think bout hee hee going out with glisten inc family..... al sleepy worms... is out of my way liao le..... whn i recieved tis msg.... " the last person to reach the meeting point will treat everyone pocorns...." wors..... i chiong ah..... cuz i already late by 5 to 10 mins liao...... haha thn i get out le... wa very hapy..... din saw gor yet...... so i chiong to thm...... whn i saw chiong coming in from the main door of compass..... haha thn i say " i first i first" haha thn mel and claud laugh lor.... and say " no lor" haha cuz gor came liao le...... jus tat he go throw rubbish..... haha hai yo..... so in the end we go ps.... i treat thm drinks lah.... ya.... haha pop corn still got buy but everybody pays... haha
welll we reach ps liao.... faster go buy ticket... saw lots of nv de students well yap... expected de lah...... okie thn... hmmm.... buy liao..... decided is watch coupse bride........ yap..... thn i very funy lor..... dunno tat corpse bride is cartoon de..... i tot i real person act de haha ...... welll result, it is nice..... funy scary and yap...... touching lah...
well after buying ticket... got lik 3 hrs to go? cuz is 340 start de..... so we faster go eat lunch... me and claud hungry lik siao lor.... gor and mel lok at us eat again.... thn very funy lah.... we kep sayin bout retribution...haha again.... okie thn while eating mel tak money from me to buy drinks for everyone..... yap..... okie thn after tat... we go zou zou.... yap..... thn go tak neoprint haha mell stil dunn lik taking neopront..... wah lau...t at machine hor.... wah..... siao de lor... haha we pose properly liao... thn suddenly the back ground sheet come down... thn cover the 3 of us lor..... thn got once is pose until very nice liao..... thn the sheet come down we faster get out of it.... thn end up ah..... the neoprint is the 3 of us.... lik clown lik tat lor... all struggling to get out of tat sheet... haha yap..... thn hmm..... very tiring.... go up go down go back go front..... dunno whn the sheet ll come down again... haha ya.... but okie lha..... the neoprints tat we deco and chose is not bad... yap......
okie after neoprint... go eat agin... we go mac...... thn cut the neoprint and divide..... thn eat ice creams.... retribution topic agian haha...... we laugh lik siao ppl lor... everyone loking at us... we still laugh lik hell haha..... heck care lah... happy jiu hao haha :P
thn we go loither loither thn go buy pop corns liao.... thn go in to watch movie le..... yap..... thn wah.... movie end liao... wah wok tat exit wok until lik miles away lik tat........ very long lor.... haha thn well.... ah..... we go to those cute cute shops... those gift shops lah..... haha finally saw sth tat i had been loking for... but no money liao..... is " xing sha" yap.....
thn go back le.... haha in mrt oso laughters al the way..... any moment with glisten inc is laughters lah...... yap..... haha wonder wat ll become to us in the future???

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genie_ng out
@ |5:18 PM|
Friday, October 14, 2005

i m finally back here again..... worx... left one mor paper liao.... art.... haix... today de chem... very cham oso..... dunno lah.... exams ar coming to an end and i think.... i may fail my maths and sciences humanities think can pass.... hopefully wun retain bah...... will drop subj lah... yap..... surely de... haha haix.....
so... now left one more art exam... and tat's it? nono... stil got piano theory exam.... and dance exam..... and lots of schs and des de dance pracs..... dunno wat my feeling was.... now fel very strange.... lik not hapy..... and lik thinking of alot of things.... drizzling somemore, dunno why fel lik crying.... others, ar happily enjoying themselves, as today is their last paper ready.... but i m not sad about me stil got these exams.... i really dunnno wat i m sad about.... :( haix.....
well jus now after sch, i go to check my eye, the doc say ya.... got shrink ready, but not fully cured yet... mon gonna go review again...... yap...... thn... hmm...... tis eye still troubling me.... see things see awhile later ll blur... blink blink okie liao, then blink blink again.... blur even mor... haix..... stupid eyes.... now i really lok very de funy.... with my right eye bigger thn my left eye liao.... before having tis yan zhen, is left eye bigger lor, cuz last time left eye yan zhen mah.... now.... opposite liao..... my eyes... haix... is never going to b equal mah? haix....
gggg.... really dunno why i fel so down now.... fel lik kep typing typing tilll dunno leh........ haix... haix... haix..... now i dunno wat i wan..... and dunno wat i m long for..... jus lik..... brain as if dead lik tat.... ggg.... dunno lah.... okie lah........ dun think liao... go slp....... (-_-)

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genie_ng out
@ |1:18 PM|
Tuesday, October 11, 2005

omg omg omg.... haix.... eye really very pain..... very pain..... haix....
wa haha today 3 am wake up liao..... shuo hao wanna meet in msn with gor by 3 am de... haha abit siao hor, but ya.... really 3 am wake.... to go msn, check the phy eoy prac paper de ans with him.... thn actaully say wanna slp at 5 am thn wake at 6 am de.... at the end....wa.... 3 am till now din rest yet.... as in nap..... now cannot.... later got piano....
wa..... today de phy.... wa... haha dunno lah.... already heck care liao... cuz ya.... dun think i m able to take pure sc liao.... so ya... today de geog okie bah... but some qn really no confidence
yest... haha very ke lian de me... haha chase bus chase liao... on the bus vomitted in my mouth! yucks...... thn swollow back.... OMG..... eeeeeeee haha but really.... wa... very poor thing... cuz tot going to b late liao... whn saw 119 at the traffic light there wah.... jiu start to run..... thn run with the bus somemore..... wah... if is sports day ah.... surely win liao..... cuz really very fast.... but at the end lah..on bus very uncomfortable.... kep lik no breath no breath... thn going to reach sch tat time ne..... wah... ya lor.... tat above mentioned disgusting thingy..... okie thn tat s not the end... emaths.... wah... siao liao.... difficult ah.....! haix.... thn leave blanks again.... then whn brk go revise hist.... haha revise half way suddenly cried.... thn frens around al stunned..... thn very funy at first cry until abit cham.... thn after awhile i m stil crying kep wiping off my tears..... thn kep saying"shit lah.... i dun wanna cry de.... dunno why the tears kep falling" haha thn SiLl crying! but laugh laugh thn sad ..... laugh laugh thn sad... again..... ggg.... haha okie thn hist ne not too bad.... write alot.... dunno got marks mah....... hee hee thn after tat.... yea!!!! happy time!!!!
we glisten inc de me claud and gor go eat lunch together..... claud say c wat i wanna eat lor.... cuz in the mornig vomit mah.... thn i say okie thn eat kopitiam lor... thn they all agree cuz haha we three all bamkrupt liao.... everyone onli got 5 dollar to spend.... thn alot of coins bah.... haha thn whn reach cp de 4th floor haha we saw jacks place haha thn we go c the menu... wah... very happy! hee hee cuz got student set.... $6.50 onli!!!! somemore got my beloved oven baked rice haha wa... really lik c stars lik tat.... thn we check our wallet.... counted all the coins.... thn say yea yea enough enough... thn we go in..... but ned to wait 15 min.... so we loither loither..... thn go to sonare music shop/sch.... haha claud tell me to use tat piano play tong hua.... wa at first tot surely get scolded by the counter tat man.... but results..... he din care us... so i paly lor haha wa... so honoured sia.... haha...
okie finallly 1.30 arrived... haha so we walked into the jack place and fel very odd cuz we ar the youngest customer ye... haha thn we eat and talk... very happy...s ay funy things tell funy jokes.... say lots of things.... and very enjoined... haha billl time arrived soon liao.... thn haha really very funy lor... cuz we all put our notes on the bill tray le ah.... wa not enough...... haha tat waiter wait for us to put alll our coins haha.... enoungh for the pay haha thn gor 10 cent 5 cent all put haha.... then the waiter we can fel tat he is smiling lor..... bleah... haha after tat he count until very cham hee hee.....
thn jus now after geog paper.... we glisten inc.... exclude shi liang, go cp de bk eat hee hee thn chat and laught again..... tok bout where we going to enjoy after eoy.... hee hee
haix... tired..... (-_-) z
z
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genie_ng out
@ |3:33 PM|
Thursday, October 06, 2005

wah... finally.... come and write again.... haix... haix.... today de e maths.... omg.... at first wa... do until very happy! tot i m doin well sia... until tat stupid qn!!! thn i m lik stuck at almost all qn.... i m lik lost suddenly, on the same seat in the same rm facing the same paper.... thn tis stupid eye wa.... lik wanna kill me lik tat... haix... kep blur not blur blur not blur..... haix... dunno whn ll heal ne? now is lik got triple eye lids on my right eye lor..... haix....
okie today de ss is okie bah... not sure... write so much also dunno right or wrong...... ggg
okie tmr is cl liao.... tis time cannot learn liao.... cuz the exam format all change liao.... dunno can survive not..... gosh....
okie.... haha after exam jus now very fun! we glisten inc go eat luch together exclude shi liang gor.... well... got me claud melissa and chee meng. all the glisten inc family haha ya...... we go rivervale mall to eat in long john silver.... haha thn wok around rivervale mall longest time in the ntuc haha very fun lah.... we ke jkgjkg..... ya.... hee hee... thn we go mel de hs.... haha i mend her door lock!!! tat time i mend claud de.... tis time mend hers... haha yea.... thn very funy we in her hs listen to her play guitar thn wok around her hs... wa her hs de furniture i luv sia.... thn we very funy really.... sit infron of the tv and guess wat we watch? guess.... " i luv u... u luv me.... we ar happy family.... with a great big hug and a kiss from me to u.... " haha guessed? ya.... burney!!!! so funy lor... cuz mel de hs no scv and thn at tat time 2 pm lik tat... no other programme mah.... thn haha we watch tis lor.... thn hai ya... very funy jiu dui liao :D haha luv to hav time with thm sia.... really..... haha thn we plan after exam go where liao haha faster after exam bah..... but still ah..... wann to b together mus work hard... or else next yr some of us retain jiu haix... sad le .... okie gtg liao bb! :)

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genie_ng out
@ |3:56 PM|
Monday, October 03, 2005

exam started liao le!!! will gone very fast de.... 2 weeks later.... we ar relaxing liao.... waiting for the next big thing, o level...... faster faster! ya...
hmm... raining again now.... ya..... cross hatcing de those rain drops.....
haix.... jus now actually going hougang ave 8 de raffles clinic.... but now thn noe closed liao.... change to eye specialists.... but no open in mon.... and somemore the time is in the morning and at night..... so time very funny..... hmm... okie thn later think going to lim country clinic again..... haix.... okie... hope ll b okie.... or tmr ll hav to one eye go sch.... but mum say onli ned to one day... thn can tak out liao.... haha
hm... today de eng paper.... welll dun really lik the compo's topics.... and the eng compre... rather hard to understand..... ggg dunno lah... okie gtg liao

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genie_ng out
@ |2:08 PM|
Saturday, October 01, 2005

worx.... long time no blog.... haix... tis eye... today even cham.... cover half of my eye.... thn type things kep typo error.... thn arg.... stupid lah.... wonder whn it ll recover.... exam start one day later liao.... dunno wat i had been doing all tis while? lik dreaming al along.... dunno got learn anything....
lots to write but... hmm... no time.... okie gtg.... reallylik having time with glisten inc... jia you everyone :)

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genie_ng out
@ |10:54 PM|
Wednesday, September 28, 2005

wah... gosh lor... tis eye geting bad to worse liao lor..... haix..... faster cut away lah... c things till so blur.... lik no eyes lik tat......
haix....... ggggg... fail e maths again.... think abit b coz tis eye lah.... thn today de papers ah... haix... dun tok bout it liao.....
thn wors.... next wk jiu xams start liao.... i found tat i m very confi of myself... but thn..... not true .... is so fake lor.... dunno why i lik tat de... haix... hating myself... sia......

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genie_ng out
@ |12:11 AM|
Monday, September 26, 2005

arg... gosh... my eye.... stupid eye..... today b4 recess.... c things is blur lah.... thn somemore ah... lik got needle in my right eye lik tat... so so ggggggg lor... haix.... wonder it ll b healed mah..... wonder... ned to go for operation mah.... wonder... wonder... i wonder.... haix....
thn... stil frustrated bout sth and thn hmm...
ggg... today de emaths.... g t fail again liao.. haix... jus dunno wat that circular angles reasoning.... thn somemore tis sye ah wah... kil kil kil.... lik helll man.... haix.... okie lah.. tmr even cham... chem and a maths... sia.....

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genie_ng out
@ |6:35 PM|
Sunday, September 25, 2005

goodness sick.... tis eye lik having a melon on my right eye lik tat.... gosh... really hav to go operation ah.... gosh lor.... so stupid lor....
haix..... exams coming so fast... wanna countdown? 10 days... 3 oct first paper.... me oso dunno i start revise liao mah anot... think wun beable to blog as often during tat period liao.... will miss bloging here de....
btw.... Glisten.Inc rawks... haha :D haix... okie lah.... dun think too much liao.... concentrate... i hppe i can.... really....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:00 AM|
Saturday, September 24, 2005

wah... tis eyes sia...cun imagaine me tmr cannot wear contact lens... wah.... how to dance..... ggg..... hope can wear spec while dancing...
cun imagine too... if mon really go under operation.... thn tue gonna hav bandaged eye to sch... omg... tis is so wat lor.......
haix.... hmm.... things ar getting from bad to worse... or bad to good...i now oso dunno wat it really was.... haix....
haix.... gggg.....

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genie_ng out
@ |1:29 AM|

wah... tis eyes sia...cun imagaine me tmr cannot wear contact lens... wah.... how to dance..... ggg..... hope can wear spec while dancing...
cun imagine too... if mon really go under operation.... thn tue gonna hav bandaged eye to sch... omg... tis is so wat lor.......
haix.... hmm.... things ar getting from bad to worse... or bad to good...i now oso dunno wat it really was.... haix....
haix.... gggg.....

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genie_ng out
@ |1:29 AM|
Thursday, September 22, 2005

gosh.... got soar eyes liao... but if really lik las time lik tat de hua... haha ll hav double eye lid at both eyes liao :) but thn haix... tis process is very cham de lor.... gosh.....
me last time left eye kana tis yan zhen (soar eye), is lik got one llump on my eye lid lor.... thn ah... lik about one to two months.... stupid lor.... thn go to hospital optical department, alot of time lor.... hate sia... thn go c doc ah.... got "bandage my left eye lor.... lik a single monster lik tat.... thn whn after the operation.... me really hav my eye bandage thn really single eye monster.... thn whn tak out.. haha got double eye lid liao.... thn oso ah.... few days after tak out tat bandage, wa.... cannot lok at sunlight... got bright de place hor... wa... eyes cannot tahan.... very cham lor.... to think tat if now go c doc stil not ok ah... the same process gonna cycle again... wa.... will die lor..... haix...... gosh...... o no.... haix..... :(
haix.... stil very frustrated...... hw.... tests... friendships.... relationships.... everything shooting towards me at one go..... tis life is getting mor and mor lik dunno wat....
i wanna my world... i noe how my world lok lik de.... so... haix....
btw... jus now wa.... slp in bus.... thn ah.... over the bus stop i m suppose to alight.... wa... thn go opp side to aboard 80 back.... thn gosh.... wait so long.. finally come liao ah.... is lik so over loaded.... thn wait again.... thn again full... but thn uncle stil let us go up.... wa.... squeezed lik sadine..... cannot breathe sia......
haix.... okie dunno wat to write..... well... next wk lik hell liao lor... so many tests..... thn tis wk gonna chiong ah..... work hard lik siao liao..... dun lik tis life lor....

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genie_ng out
@ |6:24 PM|
Wednesday, September 21, 2005

mus mus mus cherish frenship.... though u wun noe wat ll happen at the end... half way of it or from the start.....
things dun always goes the same ways and dun always hav the same tone thru out... there is hi and low..... there is wave with current.... and there is breeze with sunshine...... rain and thunder.... everything.....
the precious tears.... how can it jus drop lik tat..... y do human hav tears.... tat jus.... drop out of the eyes... which jus saw wat happen and the mind thinking? things jus goes so wrong.... :( everything is jus so puzzling...... nth is lik true at the end... and everything is lik misunderstanding? thn everything is lik full of emotions with dunno wat......
star at the blue with many flashes going by.... thinking how can such things happen ne...... thinking..... how can everything gone to a ful stop....? prob cun solve is tat true? got solutions... duno how to use.... how? mind is thinking but body not moving...... reluctant to as heart says so.....

gg..... dunno wat i toking....
these few days the eyes lik these few days de weather.....
rain rain rain....
rain rain go away.... never com bac again..... why is one's life so bitter with sour and sweetness is lik long forgotten.....
dunno......

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genie_ng out
@ |11:24 PM|

cried... haix.... think.... cried... haix.... stare into bland... think.... cried... haix..... lie down..... cry... think.... cry.... think..... read.... cried.... haix.....
tis is lik a cycle..... today tis cycle continued.... lik neverending...... lik everything had done... nver can undone.... things go so wrong... yet everything lik so calm.... with me in my bottle..... i dunno wat else i can do..... with me in tis world.... i found tat i cun survive.... with me here.... sittting here... thinking and typing..... my head was empty... wat i wanna type.....had flied out of my head.....now i m jus..... typing with no thinking? i dun wanna think the mor i think..... the mor hurt i m.... i m in such position.... a position tat not many ppl ll gone thru.....
things will never b so alright.... things ar jus so... cham......
dun wanna write liao... going to cry again.... no matter wat.... i ll b here.... i ll always b here... i noe wat i m doing... wat i m undergoing....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:28 AM|
Sunday, September 18, 2005

ggg ggg ggg
tmr phy test.............................
art work to finish..................... by tis wk..... luv to but no time...............
hw...... dunno wat i doing.....
hmm... jus now celebrate autumn festival in my dance sch, and danced two dance.... the opening item and jaz..... the jazz.... omg... i jus simply cun so ordinate sia.... i dance lik haha dunno wat....
haix.... still got hitngs to write de.... but well..... gtg......haix.... take care everyone.... eoy coming.... yap....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:58 PM|

lotsa things to do... trying to spend my time wisely... but the time jus seems to ya... haha dun listen....
sometimes.... haix... human jus lik tat.... wanna time to flies faster lik me wanna faster after o level.... and oso wanna time to b slow slow.... lik me again.... wanna time to finish all assignments on hands.... but haix.... human jus cun cun cun get their wishes granted.... dun wanna b a genie.... cuz i noe in tis world.... being a genie.... welll wasn a possible things..... cuz yap.... jus simply impossible......
today is autumn festival liao.... haha may everyone able to eat the mooncake.... and ya..... enjoy?

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genie_ng out
@ |9:58 AM|
Saturday, September 17, 2005

haix... stress..... haix... stress....
but haha used to it ready?
i m jus a genie in the bottle... once i m in my bottle, i m isolated from the world...... anything tat happens there out there.... i hav no feeling bout..... no emotion passing by..... no words to describe..... i noe nth.... once i m in the bottle.... dun even noe myself......
haix..... well..... stress really..... stil stil mor and mor loking forward to life after o level.....
now.... i m lik..... i noe my future path.... the path of ART..... yet i m here, struggling to study.... things i hate and dislike...... tis is meaningless....
mentally corrupted tis few days.... everyday rush rush rush.... holi de hw din finish..... so mon till wed really rush lik siao... mentally corrupted.... rocket tat fly out of the space lik tat.... haix... dunno lah.... hate tis life...
jus wanna b in my bottle? in my world? cuz i noe in my world.... haix.... everything ar jus so yap.... perfect...... everyone had their own world... jus tat no one noe the doors to it.... dun even noe where is the window.... but somehow.... in a way or another..... yap..... one.... lll beable to reach there..... jus as easy.....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:30 AM|
Wednesday, September 07, 2005

today.... first half of the day hapy hapy.... 3rd 1/4 of the day.... wah... siao liao.... thn now ok ok lah... haha dun understand?
hmm.... here goes.... tis morning wake up... wah legs pain lah of cuz... yest really danced a vibrant dance.... thn haha prepare everything liao... go cp.... hee hee meet claud do tat stupid geog proj... thn go take 80 to national library.... haha lose lose lose i kept brin claud to the wrong floor... thn after tat wah... whn finding the info books, stomach groaned lik dunno wat.... thn somemore.... lok at those bk.... talk bout food in singapore.... wah.... hungry till dunno lik wat.... haha.... thn haha faster do do do write write liao.... go bugis eat haha SWENSEN'S! haha
wah.... swensen another funy funy place for us haha :P cuz ah..... haha cuz ah....we ordered our food liao mah.... thn ah.... the first item came... is mushroom soup.... then we ar lik "o is whose one?" thn we both dunno... thn jus put in the middle lah... hungry liao.... tak a few sip first... haha okie the next item is.... coke.... okie tis we really very surprise.... we jus ordered plain water... free de mah.... thn hor.... we lok at the coke.... thn ask each other" jus now is order palin water hor?" thn we very puzzled lor.... raise hand call tat waiter.... he lok at us we point tat drink to him... thn he even mor puzzled than us.... thn tak the drink away.... thn after tat another waiter.... came back with the same coke... thn say " ur pasta come with the mushroom soup and a cup of coke" thn haha omg so funny lor! is lik... haha no wonder.... haha okie thn we enjoyed our meal lah.... claud ate spagethi lik haha fish on hook haha :P no offence wors... haha she ownself laugh luo... haha :P okie thn... hmm... after tat... we faster go tak neoprint... haha neopron very nice ye haha but the process very funny haha.... shout shout shout... thn dunno wat the machine wanna us to do..... haha okie thn go back to my home... on the journey back home haha we both dozed off... so slpy luo and somemore bus journey really long haha yap....
okie reach home... is the 3rd 1/4 of the day... worx.... wa... lik mad lik tat... after but bubble tea home... wah start to rush liao... cuz i haven finish my theory..... thn later 6 pm got piano... liao... thn claud 7 got tution... thn haha jus now called thn she say... actually dunno hav haha she so fed up.... okie thn till now lor.... haix... finally write finish... haha :P

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genie_ng out
@ |9:20 PM|
Tuesday, September 06, 2005

hmm.... reached home from chem lesson today.... haix... stil got doze off a few sec....
hmm... later going for dance liao... till night night.... wonder how hard is the dance for chingay haha :P
hmm... tired liao.....
i dun think i m listening to any lessons.... cuz i jus wanna go to life after o level mah... so i kep thinking... i no ned to learn so much mah... learn so much for wat.... so i think tis is why i dun listen during lesson.... wat had gone wrong to me.... dunn wanna noe.... but wanna the ans..... but noe lah... nobody can tell me the ans.... .... haix...... i rather now o level liao ah.... so can faster faster.... haha okie lah..... say somemore... wanna imagine life after o level again... kkk gtg.... prepare...

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genie_ng out
@ |11:48 AM|
Monday, September 05, 2005

hmm... today go farm very fun haha saw those goats..... haha thn ya lah... lots to write no time sia..... rushy liao....
hmm... today n level liao worx... started to get fast fast fast rushy rushy le.....
hmm... thn after reach sch... i go art...... yap haha thn go hm liao... tiring.... sia

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genie_ng out
@ |5:54 PM|

worx... finally over liao... the performance in chinatown.. is so so so so so tired.....goodness..... sweat from the start.... thn kep standing.... leg sour sia..... luckily the long life rain stopped whn we start to dance.... or else.... yap.... thn finally haha finish le... everyone.. relieved.... jus now jus watched 11 o clock news.... hmm... din pai dao me... but got pai dao my hand bah.... thn guang jun lao shi's technique.... superb... ya.... the next big big proj is next yr de chinese new yr chingay.... tis holi oso needa go back prac... cuz they say oct... wanna preview for dunno who.... worx.... busy busy...
wanna faster after o level lah..... thn hmm.....
hmm.... thn haix.... tired.... dunnoo stil wanna say wat.... now eyes.... two straight lines liao
tmr hee hee going to farm...... geog one.... with gor and mei and lots others lah.... but pathetic.... n level tm start... so while we ar enjoying our trip in farm.... they ar thinking hard.... for paper.... but gd lah... very fast can rest rest liao....
hmm.. okie gtg.....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:31 AM|
Saturday, September 03, 2005

hmm.... well.... tired lor.... tmr jiu perform liao.... hope i can do it... jus now reherse.... oso lots of movement and position unclear..... go over with it with smiles... wonder ok mah... haix....
hmm... thn holidays.... today draw out the schedule liao.... really very cham... everything crash.... haix... okie gtg sia....

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genie_ng out
@ |10:06 PM|

worx... tired.... sunday jiu perform liao.... wonder me okie mah..... cuz.... dance steps stilll not sure de mah.... today dance for teachers' day celebration..... mor lik a day to anger teachers lik tat.... all teachers were pissed.... thn haha got cake eat.... thanks for the cake yi jun and qian ting brought for the teachers.... though rather smal :P
hmm.... thn.... holi started liao... but mor lik collapsing sia..... really very cham.... mon enjoy enjoy..... thn others day jiu hav to chiong liao..... haix..... whn ll tis stop.....
had jus tot of my future.... life after o level..... hmm.... really very nice to imagine bout..... if i go NAFA.... thn.... haha few hours of lessons.... thn can go either find simple jobs.... thn after sch can go nlb read bks..... thn alot of things can b done..... short lesson time mah..... thn.... can stil hav my piano lesson... thn fri can straight go dance..... i seems to had planned every thing liao worx haha lol :D but really wanna faster after o level.....
today 4 tests... stupid me stil go learn phy quiz yest night..... thn today no quiz...... hai wo.... some cannot memorize.... 4 tests ye.... how to rmb so much..... tis wk... is lik a mentally corrupted week sia..... really hav to go to MPH soon haha
forget stil got wat to say.... think of thn write again....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:16 AM|
Thursday, September 01, 2005

hmm.... haix.... these few days oso lotsa things happen... unable to say finish de.....
hmm.... well..... got classmate get caned... and got cry.... oso dunno y..... haix....
thn yest teachers day..... thn the whole show... put up by us prefects and 2 to 4 teachers...... hmm... thn went back to khs.... primary sch....hmm.... saw mrs foo and mrs chin together.... thn... hmm... tok tok tok haha lots to tok lah... thn din saw zuo lao shi after tat saw hui wen...... she say she go liao... haha wonder whn can give her the card again.... :)
haix... happy for sth.... sad for sth too...
y fail a maths again?????????????????????????? couldn b de lor
still got lots to write... but fri got lotsa tests.... haix.....

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genie_ng out
@ |5:36 PM|
Monday, August 29, 2005

worx.... today almost mentally corrupted.... i m lik gone mad.... the whole day oso rather quiet.... as i m so stressed up.... cuz.... suddenly cannot rmb anything.... cannot rmb chem formula... phy.... oso dunno y tot got quiz... learnt both sc..... thn is lik head bursting.... thn haix... emths retest... reretest rather... finally can pass liao....
gosh.... lots of things lah... still cannot online often.....
hmm.... cca stop liao.... till after exams..... thn hmm..... replaced by crt liao... is gd for us.... :)
thn tis sunday jiu perform for the chinatown lantern festival lighting ceremony chingay..... worx... stress oso cuz las sat thn learnt the steps mah.... sunday... mor clear of my position liao...
now already noe... the whole sep holi is gonna cllapse... worse than the 911....
lots to say... no time... but wanna say... i very tired.... :o
hate tis life lah... faster lor.....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:28 PM|
Saturday, August 27, 2005

haix.... tired.... today dunno y.... think cuz help claud do blog bah.... wah really mus thanks me sia..... :P .... thn the whole day lik dead log lik tat... tired until cannot say.... haix.... thn tahan till very hard.... haix..... thn reach hm wah... slp lik a pig.... thn get late for dance.... today dance oso rather tiring... stil hav lots of syllabus to go thru..... and kep forgetting those movements....
sch life today is jus lik " bear it bear it...." cuz ah... the eye kep closing... if without pe ah... i really ll go slp on the desk sia...... very cham... tot i really will go sick....
tmr go support for the debate.... thn immediately go for dance..... hope i can rmb all movements.... omgdness....
hmm.... very tired.... gtg....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:54 AM|
Friday, August 26, 2005

worx.... tired ah..... but hmm... stil got hist re test tmr..... thn hmm...
got improve hee hee.... lessons din slp liao..... think able to bah... haha but today... again very late slp liao..... cuz haix... dun wanna re re test hist.... mon re re test e maths.... thn mor mor tests coming... haix.... but anw.... surely there is an end de ya.... haha jus one step go one step..... very fast will reach destiny de bah....
hmm.... too tired.... forget wat to say liao haha :o

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genie_ng out
@ |12:11 AM|
Tuesday, August 23, 2005

hmm... today... wait schedule first....
well..... tmr.... got cl test.... e maths re re test... haix.....
okie thn fri ne got........... geog re test....
haha gd now alot ppl around me writing letters... haha we pass leters around the class and around the sch haha so fun....... lik writing letters
okie thn my jap song ne... tat daddy long leg tat one.... almost translate finish liao.... thn haven start creating... haha will hav chance de.... but gonna b busy again...
haix.... i noe liao... sept holi... going to collapse again.... haix... omg...
but gd me got improvement.... i din slp in class le! everyday...... nowadays ah..... latest... 1230... hee hee..... yap hope i can ya.....
thn ne.... hmm..... forget still wanna write wat liao... alots lah... but gonna go prepare go piano liao.....
hmm... wan faster faster.... life after o level... sound so fresh.......
o ya... haha prefects... hav to wear white everyday o..... except sec 1.... tis order... is so so impossible haha haix... me uniform de... omg.... sure die... haix......
okie gtg....

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genie_ng out
@ |4:22 PM|
Sunday, August 21, 2005

hmm... got improvement.... at least jus now able to finish all my hw at one go.... so long din lik tat liao... think i m able to concentrate lah... yap..... going towards..... hope tis path is jus so smooth? haha :D yap
hmm... but stil the same... haha wanna faster after o level... regardless me in the future do wat jpb... or watever......
me now composing japan song haha dunno y... suddenly fel lik singing japan song... jus recieved tis Bai Xue, a song of the dlphin bay one.... japan song... very nice.... to me lah... haha
thn now is flipping thru the dict of cl-jap de.... thn find the cl word liao, c the jap word is wat.... thn lok for the pronounce of it... haha thn jus now ne.... jus copy down the lyrics of my fav japan cartoon, Daddy Long Leg.... going to find the pronouce of the jap words.... thn can sing liao... haha :) okie all the best everyone.... stay happy and yap happy go lucky :D

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genie_ng out
@ |7:31 PM|
Saturday, August 20, 2005

dun fel lik doing anything now... haix.....
the fel of dun wanna study deeper and deeper... haix......
omg.... wat m i doing..... there is stil one mor yr to go ye.... and now..... eoy haven even started yet.... wanna life after o level liaox......
ggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
haix...... omg ........... gosh......

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genie_ng out
@ |5:16 PM|

hmm... today... got a bad news.... grandma de brother..... passed away liao....
i m not close to him..... he isn close to us lah actaully.... but i dunno y... b4 i go for dance, heard bout tis news, i fel so so so.... un mood..... no mood to do anything.... thn fel tat... i can lik... anytime jus cry out... and nobody noes y...... but so far haven yet....
how he passed away de.... got diff ppl say diff things.... one say the factory bomb... thn yap..... one say.... there got fire..... thn the other say.... is cuz electric shocked by the refrigerator... he is a refrigerator mender mah.... those engineers bah can say... cuz he noes how to mend those electric thingy.... esp refrigerator.... haix..... y do ppl hav to live , do so much ofr others, and disappear ne? shld as welll dun live right?
me.... haix...... dun wan tis life... think everyday de blog oso the same this sentence bah.... dun wan tis life...
today art lesson... paint murals. really lik tat..... had borrowed two bks bout murals from national library mah..... thn really wanna b.... murals decorator.... which whn i ask mr ng....w at they calll he say.... they simply called artist....
hmm....
wat will my future b lik..... i wonder....
wat willl my future b... i wonder.....
it could b so exciting to b set to b free? i shld b wildly rejoicing.....
hmm.... songs really tells the heart msg of ppl.....
welll today ne... hav the prefect photo taking... thn today ne.... get the entreprneur in the making prg.... de certificate.... thn... hmmm hav been gd....at least din slp durin lesons..... hope i can continue such tilll yap.... end of sec.......

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genie_ng out
@ |12:10 AM|
Thursday, August 18, 2005

cannot online liao le... onli fri and sat... and now...cannot kep fail tests.....
mrs loo called mum yest.... in sch right after e maths remedial..... thn whn i calling mum for her ah.... i start to cry liao... thn mrs loo still kep say.... dun cry... prob can b solved de....
me really very busy with prefects bonding ... so at tnight though... promise dad and mum not going to online... stilll online cuz needa discuss with asst..... btw they did well.... though... the prefects bonding session... hmm.... not very very gd.... but ya lah... for first timer... is a gd experience.....
thn hmm..... haix..... ah.... gggggggggg haix....
whn mrs loo ask y ... wat happen to me....
i really wanna say.... cuz i dun wanna study...i jus wanna paint and all the arts.... i dun wanna study! but of cuz no lah.... how can such words ever com out from my mouths de?.....
haix... thn i m lik kep cry cry cry... thn claud thm ar lik coax coax coax.... thn i cry even worse..... thn haix.... first time cry in sch luo..... :'(
whn go down to the prefect thingy..... some of thm can c tat i cried.... cuz my whole face red red de.... thn nose very red... eyes very watery....thn some saw me cry cuz whn i greet mrs somu and mrs jenny tan, i cry again... thn they tok to me... coax me....
haix.... y me come to such a state.... :(
really very sad sad sad....
but hapy.... tat so many ppll around me.... ty everyone.... eso my family and "family"
really..... ty
got time thn ya blog again....
thn hmm..... today de cl oral... not bad lah... jus tat the conversation... abit hard to think... and i suddenly say a " thn" in the middle of the conversations... haix.... wonder how much i ll score ne?
hmm... thn n level.... prelim.... continuing... and sec 4s and 5s... having tests and tests...
ya... everything is jus tat fast liao... me.. haix....

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genie_ng out
@ |7:27 PM|
Tuesday, August 16, 2005

omg man... tis soar throat really very soar lor.... every min... every sec.... once i suck my saliva ah.... it ll b very pain liao.... thn tis morning ah.... wah... no one can heard wat i say lor.... can heard.... very very soft.... thn ah.... wah... yest is cough, got two voice de.... today is suddenly tok ah... got two voice de.... ggg... thn is lik so so pain... and uneasy luo.... haix.... tis stupid throat... haix.... thn tis is the first time ah... wa soar throat until lik tat.... tok to cluad os ned use paper and pen haha... thn tok to yt.... hav to resist her luagh.... she keo say " wah really so cham ah.... your voice so soft..." thn ne... tok to others.... they " huh huh huh" tok to mr aw ah... wah.... he ned to put his ear very near me thn can hear haha... thn ne... tok to anyone oso ned to explain y voice lik tat... dun even noe...y will soar till lik tat..... wat is the czuse ne? haix....
hmm... today tests... dunno can pass mah.... esp hist.... hmm... thn tmr is tat bonding session liao.... all of us working very hard for tat.... hmm... but me tmr after sch got e maths test... thn ah... b4 sch ah... got a maths re re test... haix... so cham...... ggggggggggggg....... dun lik tis life lah...say liao....
hmm.... thn tmr n level student, taking prelim liao... starting lou!!! very fast.... very fast our turn... me wan faster after o level luo... haix.......
okie bah..... hope my throat well thur is cl oral liao leh... hai yo....

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genie_ng out
@ |5:00 PM|
Monday, August 15, 2005

still frustrated lik siao....
esp today ah... tis stupid throat.... soar lik dunno wat.... lik got one hole in my throat lik tat..... haix.... very killing....
thn the prefect thingy.... haix.... hope it to b sucess.... and in order to do so.... hav to yap... hai yo... very ma fan... my first big task as a welfare head... but hor.. tests and hw.... wa all shooting me.... giv me a shooting star i thn wan...al tis ah.... rao yi da quan and shot me..... turn one big round... c how i suffer liao... thn shot me agian......
tis life suxing now.... tis is the first time i use tis word? yap..... but really cannot tahan... such a life... is so not ful of meaning... lik dunno rush for wat.... cannot rest somemore..... thn .... is lik.... is so... rushing.... whn ppl dunno rush for wat ....
haix.... forget tat thur is cl oral... omg..... haix... soart hroat hope by thn okie liao.... :(
haix..... frusrated ah....

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genie_ng out
@ |10:49 PM|
Sunday, August 14, 2005

arg............. pressure... stressed.... so many things...
i m out of breath liao... going to die anytime.... suffocatin
everything... coming towards me... shot lik hell.... dunno how to defend....
sis de attitude....
tests and hw....
prefects bonding sessions and all those stuff....
blaming my self? dunno... blaming others? i m lik wat my cl tb says.... qiao ke li.... actually is own prob.... but cuz ownself dunno so tot is others de prob.... but m i really the prob? dunno.... dun wanna noe... to frutrated..... hate tis.... think wanna lead a simple life lik dunno? life after o lvel is so far to imagine yet me is here, wanting to go go go fly fly fly.... to tat stage... to tat place... they ar waitng for me... tis unpredictable de future.... tis life going to b... yap.... to tis stage.... i cun wait? yet oso scared to reach there.... there is so much of obstacle... there s one mor yr to go ... and that big thin.... thre.... haix.....
okie dun care... one step one footprint.... let time tak it course... me is no where to yap....

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genie_ng out
@ |10:14 PM|
Saturday, August 13, 2005

there s a human here call jeanne.... and not onli a genie here call jeanne....
jeanne is not onli a genie... she is a human...
everyone is making use of me.... i dunno y i tot so...... everything is so trmendous... i cun stand it anymore... is too much of a oever my limit...... :(
everyone is making use of me i tot and dunno y....
today i m very disappointed with my sis.... i dun care if u ar reading tis.... i dun care... i cun stand it... so i really mus tok..... i hav gd things, i always share it with u... the thing i wann.... get.... the thing i wan u always the first to get.... the thing i dun wan... u always push it to me..... u ar being selfish tis as time goes.... i dunno y... and u ar mor and mor lik a princess, with me, more and mor lik a maid... a servant.... a sand bag.... a puching bag..... a dunno wat.... i dun wanna think so... but i had beared so long and so much.... how long do u wan me to b a cindereala?

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genie_ng out
@ |5:49 PM|
Friday, August 12, 2005

i m lik lose in my own world.... i m lik hating myself mor and mor whn i actaully wanna not.... i m lik.... someone there.... with tis heart still pumping... tis brain stil sorking but the soul.... hanging around.... with no place to put...... i m lik.... someone.... or a body tat is good for nothing..... i dunno why ll i thought so.... i... jus wanna noe... how to yap.... get rid of such.....
days recently, i m lik... no mood to study.... whn come to subjs.... i ll say" i dun wanna study liao...." i hav been saying tis sentence for numerous times... whn i actually dun wanna... but fel so much bout it..... now i m only interested.... in art... i m onli interested in drawing.. painting and yap.... tis seems to b my permanent wellness in life? i start to fel tat.... all those subjs ar jus wasting my time... and i m lik giving up giving up giving up..... with my willness to study is down down down....
i hav no tot... how can i live with such yap.... and how m i ever to b hapy hapy hapy..... which i really cun find... now......
i dun wanna fel lose.... esp in my own world... my world... is a place.... a special place... with its own ppl... with its own settlements and everything... its own looks.... with noone ll ever c..... ever get into... except me.....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:52 PM|
Wednesday, August 10, 2005

worx..... yest haha national day.... got watch the ndp of cuz... thru tv lah... thn wah... haha cuz go uncle's hs mah.... he there is kallang.... thn go to the 20th flor ah, can c the fire work... and i really finally caught sight of it.... last wk seling in marina bay hai yo.... dun even noe wat i saw lor... :P thn wah cuz from there, can c 2 places..... padang which is blocked by lots of tall buildings... and marina south which is not really blocked by tall building... so haha yap... hav a gd time watching those.... yap.... thn after watching those, go back to uncle's hs.... thn exchange bdae present with my cousin, who had bdae las fri.... thn think his present is the las present i ll get tis yr bah.... yap... hmmm find his present find until very cham leh haha really..... wonder he reading tis entry mah......
okie thn wa my smal cousin so cute... i fed her, her dinner haha i say whn i finish tell me.... thn after one mouth, she ll open her mouth wide, thn i ll put one mor mouth into her mouth... thn haha there is once... haha me fed her liao... she finish liao... i watching the ndp mah... thn forget to fed her another..... thn she kep open her mouth wide thn me stil dunno... thn she actually not sitting faced me one... thn she change position, facing me.. thn i notice haha so cute....
hmm.. thn last night... slp in my sis rm... thn we tok tok tok.... actually wanna very early slp de... thn on bed tok tok tok... thn after tat... very late thn slp...... haha yap... tok alot lah... :P
hmm.... thn later ne... going to mak ic liao.... the photo haha very funny ah... processing of me taking pasport size photo.... no time to say lah... but think i ll not forget tis yap.... hmm... after making ic.... neda go des dance liao... got dance prac...
tmr got tests...... haix.... dun lik test... dun wanna go sch... dun wanna tis life... wanna life dunno whn......
okie gtg revise liao....

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genie_ng out
@ |9:18 AM|
Monday, August 08, 2005

today ... wear white shirt and red jacket go sch... haha thn hmm..... become the programe sequencing de mah... i actually is prg sequencing advisol de lor... but haix... head... got prefect item... thn vice head dnno die tilll where liao.... haha pai seh sorr sorr..... cuz really cannot find..... thn is lik... me is running the whole show... of sequencing... q-ing thm...... thn run here run there..... thn serch for back stage crew... is hardy.... haix...
okie thn after tat... we, meaning yt claud and me lah... go zhi hui hs... change..... me onli change into jeans lah.... cuz top already hm clothes le.... thn zh din follow us totally she... met her fren thn yap... we 3..... thn at first ah.... ma yi wanna follow us de.... thn yap.... claud hahah angry... thn claud after tat regret.... dunno y she lik so angry... whn she noe ma yi going too... me is so welcomely for him lah actually.... think is okie ah.... yap.. jus tat yt and ma yi... thn me and claud... nobody beside us mah.... haha thn we go cathay lah.... wa tak mrt from doby ghaut ah... take wrong side to somerset... haha so funy lor... thn hmm........ reach cathay le... we 3 go buy tickets first.... cuz no time liao... though very hungry lah.... thn actaully claud wanna watch horror movie... thn me and yt dun wanna mah.... thn she go c c oso no horror movie today... so ahah actaully wanna charlie in the chocolate factory one.... thn yap...... cannot.... cuz full liao...... thn at the end recommend by claud..... we go watch with luv... is japan de thn wa.... we all got cry lor... is so touching... how i wish i hav a guy beside me..... is lik... wa..... i try not to cry try until so cham.... yi zi len yi zi len..... cuz scare later influence cluad cry mah... thn after me got tears in eye liao.... heard claud nose de sound... haha yap... she crying too liao... thn i start having my tears tat ar lik rolling in my eyes for dunno how long le ah.... rolling down my face..... wah... hw i wish got a guy beside.... yap... haha :P
okie lah... thhn after tat we go tak neoprint.... all i pay one lor... cuz i so thrifty ah... haha t the end still got money mah... so yap.... thn hmm.... neoprint at herren.... thn the results ah... me tat autumn one very nice.... as they say lah... kep commenting my autumn scenario de neoprint haha..... okie lah..... gtg ......
hope can come back fast.....

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genie_ng out
@ |8:22 PM|
Sunday, August 07, 2005

haix.... cannot go online liao.... me cry lik muiltiple time today? tis morning? esp[ whn i play tong hua... as if someone die lik tat.... so ppl, .. hiax.... i cannot online liao... think onli whn got proj... or fri and sat thn can.... :'(
hmm...... okie gonnna yap... :''''''(

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genie_ng out
@ |5:53 PM|

worx... today... seling... in marina bay... not bad.... very uunforgetable.... and very fun? haha very tiring... actually some frens say wanna come.... but at the end, unable.. haha i got buy things from my own stall ye haha :P hmm..... haha being called smilely face by mr goh haha hmm.... haha okie lah... me lik to smile de mah.... hmm... okie ah.... very tired.... cannot write too much.. haven touch hw.... but got 3 days no lessons haha..... but hai ya... after holi.... hmm... got lots of test.... so stupud... lah... okie gtg.... veryt tired.....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:29 AM|

worx... today... seling... in marina bay... not bad.... very uunforgetable.... and very fun? haha very tiring... actually some frens say wanna come.... but at the end, unable.. haha i got buy things from my own stall ye haha :P hmm..... haha being called smilely face by mr goh haha hmm.... haha okie lah... me lik to smile de mah.... hmm... okie ah.... very tired.... cannot write too much.. haven touch hw.... but got 3 days no lessons haha..... but hai ya... after holi.... hmm... got lots of test.... so stupud... lah... okie gtg.... veryt tired.....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:29 AM|
Saturday, August 06, 2005

hmm.... stil haha very stress....
but at least... yap... better than yest? wat a helll really very presurize....
okie haha tmr is the ndp carnival at marina bay liao... gonna selll thing le neh.... but hor... omg... my legs ar killing me lor... :( now is lik so so so so pain....... haix..... hope tmr better..... thn can go koup custormers and run about the carnival haha got fireworks ye.... so goody..... sat night sell things is the best ... haha great...it ll b so fun ? i suppose... and hope so... haha wanna a geni to help me tis genie grant tis wish ye haha me always grant others, wishes.. me myself cannot... hurr.... unfair! haha no lah...
okie.... thn today ne.... got slp during geog lesson... haha eng presentation done... not bad.... thn geog ne haha onli a few grp present... thn for the time being... me slp :P our grp haven yet present....
think bcuz no time slp... slp so late... abit mood swing today... and haix.... cun resist those sudden occur de things....
okie haix... dad sick... stil fetch me to sch today... cuz i overslp... surely de lor... 3am thn slp leh.... thn whn i alight i say " xie xie ni shen bin hai song wo san xue" thn i think... he is touched bah... haaha :)
haix.... alot ppl stil sick lah.... nowadays... gastric pain very popular... and common.. haha....dunno y ne.....haix..... me is one of thm lor... today i m very sure... me gastric pain cuz... hungry... very hungry ye recess me pe half way... cannot tahan.... but stil continue play lah haha luv pe.... but cher! pls... no mor frisbee..... i wanna run lah...
okie... today art haha draw mural ye! haha drew clarinet! hmm... thn xz saw liao haha dun believe is i draw one.... i ask him paint he say dunno how to paint haha.... hai yo ah haha :D thn he say wanna koup some go bac draw haha can lor.... art rm de things... lost liao oso mr ng heck care... i can stole his paints so many time yet haha nth happen lor.... but ne... he really hav art talent ye.... truth...
okie.... hmm.... tats al today? haha cun think of other thing tat happen liao... dun wanna rmb so dun write haha

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genie_ng out
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005

stil very stres and tiring... haix...
but wanna tellu sth! I TODAY DIN DOZE OFF IN CLASS!
haha tragic ye... such miracle...... dunno y leh so lik not tire today... and whn actual fact is tat... me yest night... very tired.... lik 1 sth lik tat while pack bag.... thn doze off thn wake up again... continue my hw... thn continue pack bag... thn doze off again... mum 2 am come in... a=ngrily wake me up.... cuz me haven finish packing bag and everything is in a mess.... thn wake again.... finaly pack finish bag.... slp lik dead log.... thn morning... wa.. .almost late... me 730 thn wake up..... 8 ned reach sch mah.....
thn think wa... today surely will slp in class de....
but.... NO! haha no ye.... even rain lor... yet i din fal aslp... haha
okie... so much things to do... entrepreneur de... proj de... hw de... so many de.. haix...

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genie_ng out
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

wat a hell lor.... i really hate tis type of life... is so shitting.....
me lik kep scolding bad words hor? but it is really damn sick.... me really very angry.....
very frustrated.... dun wan tis life lah....>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sick sick sick.....
everyday lik yao shi yao shi lik tat.... me is genie so wat.... will still die de lor.....
so many things... liao....
whn family everyone is sick ah.... lik now ah....
mum gatric pain..... sis.... eat too much titbits and sick.... dad.... cuz grandma bdae party.... drink too much wine.... not go drunk lah... but he cun drink too much .... thn now oso sick.... thn everyone sick all the hs wk i do lor..... i dun mean to blame anyone... who can i blame....? they ar sick mah...... me sick.... they oso help me... jus tat wasn tis lik too much? go tlah.... grandma.... but she is not young liao.... she very easy ll sick... dun wanna her too tire..... she did help washing clothes lah.... she had al the while been doing so....
i dun lik the house atmosphere whn many was sick....
i was sick too lor.... me tis morning sick.... got flu and some soar throat..... thn tat stupid lips.... still dunno wat happen to my lips lor... i dun wanna see doctor... waste of money... if it is nth leh? thn stil c doc waste money waste time..... really hope my lips ar okie.....
me..... dun wan tis life..... can anyone safe me? me can actually straight away go nafa or watever lor... but the prob is..... the government.... wat ll they think... i think tese ar so stupid... if ppl lik me lah.... luv arts so much till lik tat..... can straight away go the art path mah.... learn so much things for wat... waste my brain cells and waste my brain juice.....
sick and tire of such life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no matter how much i say tis... oso no use... stupid....

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genie_ng out
@ |10:30 PM|
Saturday, July 30, 2005

i m not ur maid....
i m not ur son....
i m not ur servant....
i m not cinderealla....
i m not ur sand bag...
i m not ur toy....
i m not ur clown...

i m not a robot.... i m a human... i hav feling... i noe wat is tire...i noe my limit....
i m not a wonderful genie.... i m jus gal... a normal gal... jus tat i take responsibilites lik genie

pls.... dun remind me of today... i really hate today lik hell.... today is terrible...i cun describe.... is lik the whoever up there tat lok upon on me.... tat control me, played a terrible horible trick on me toda.... pls stop playing tricks on me.... pls... i cun stand it very long... i m not someone who did wrong thing.... why do u hav to trick me... as if i did sth terribly wrong? wats wrong? i m lik done nth wrong till u play trick on me... and i m lik tatking revenge... tats why do wrong things again....
in the past... i get bullied.... i bear with it i kep quiet.... i cry and cry my tears none stop.... everyday reach hm first thing cry... thn lok up the sky.... thn lok for the one who make my fate..... thn cry and lsatly hate myself.... i m lik a fool? thn is lik i m lik someone who is... did lots of things and everything gone to a terrible stop and lik someone who did alot and nobody appreciate and lik did things tat help others... and yet get sth unpleasantly bad back.... i...i always say i m a genie... i always say so... b cuz whn i tell myself i m a genie, thn i lll noe i did tis to make ppl hapy.... if i dun do tis... i d hav cry infront of everyone already multip;le numerous time.... i.. dun wan to make things worse.... i dun wan to b the evil genie... i m not...
whn things gone wrong.... is lik i m the one to b blamed.... nobody tot tat why eve4rything can lik go on so wonderfully whn they had did such little things... nobody had tot of who is the one behind there supporting everything.... controling everything to let everything go on finely lik nth wrong had happen......
i m crying now... whenever i cry nobody ll noe... cuz i dun wanna let anyone worry bout me... in the past in the present even in the future i noe.... i noe i wun cry infront of others.... cuz i dun wan others to worry bout me... i dun wanna make a burden on others..... i dun wanna b the hateful.... i dun wan to..... dun wan to b the genie... tat i hav been lik.... happiness for others... isn easy ok... :'( :''( :''q

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genie_ng out
@ |5:37 PM|
Friday, July 29, 2005

worx.... finally.... the dance performance for syf closing ceremony is over..... is rather sucess i can say... jus tat wa... tat xiang bin tat smoke lah... wah... make me kep coughing..... and some others too of cuz.... thn after dance ah.. me cannot tok till some min later.... the whole face ah... lik whn u do "bridge" and stay tat position for very long lime lik tat... very cham... fel lik vomiting sia.... but whn standby for finale is okie liao...
worx... the finale... is fine lah so much better than tat time jiu dui le.... thn whn after finale... go back to dressing rm... some of the sec 4/5 who is lik tis is gonna b the las performance they hav... they ar touched and happy and sad... they cried... i fel lik crying too... i m lik gonna cry lik tap lik tat... but everything is too fast.... my tears was lik shocked, and i m lik stunned... everything is over... 5 mum ago... we ar preparing to perform going to show pourselves infront of thounds of audience and is lik everything is over.... i m stunned... so my tears... is jus inside my eyes.... i think if everything wun so fas, everybody would hav cry.... cuz....
cuz... we really out in a lot of effort in tis performance... and we really had suffered alot... sacrifice lots of time on it and... is lik we had done so much and within tat how many min.... we ar done our result was out... we ar pleased.... we ar... lik... we hav done so much? we had skip lessons... we had went hm late and do hw till night night.... we skiped lessons and skipped tests and everything is lik... we hav been bonded and omg i m crying now... is lik... i really dunno hw to describe... one person unable to do the action... do the movement we waited together till she is okie... one person hav prob in sth... we ll get together... we ar lik one bunch together...
i cun really describe it.... i ll not outsiders... wun fel too much bout it... but.... we.... really hav so much feling in it... we can cry lik hell man..... and get touched into the heart.....
i m sure if they put a really emotional song whn all audience was off.... and onli left us tis performance.... we ll surely 100% all cry and get all our make up gone... but the cheek was stil red cuz of the crying.... and the the blusher.....
i can say not much... i m crying lik rain and yap....

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genie_ng out
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Thursday, July 28, 2005

arg.... faster faster.... tmr coming liao... and it ll go off soon... and once it go off liao.. me ll release liao... so faster faster.... though i noe lah... after tis performance le... surely got lots of work to b done.... already lost counts of the proj and hw to do and done.... haix..... tiring sia... and whenver i think of such things.... i ll say tis to me " i wan to go to life after o level!" no matter if it is nafa... lasalle-sia or nan yang poly... i noe it is sth tat is better than now.... i noe....
hmm... really tired.... and lots to catch up with... i noe my wish to arrive life after o level wun b granted.... so i hav to bear somemore... and yap... noe wat i shld do? and sth lik tat? yap... haix... okie....
hope tmr de perform can b smoothly over....

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genie_ng out
@ |10:20 PM|
Wednesday, July 27, 2005

today ne.. is beurselfday....
but ne.. haha me din wear hm clothes... is wear.... sch u skirt and dance shirt... cuz.... got rehearsal mah.... thn 1310 jiu ciao liao... go kallang theatre rehearse..... so familar with it liao... so not so much of a stage fright.... but haix... tiring sia.... but get to c how other schs perform too... today.... 7 schs mah... mos memorable the dance is n jc one... very nice..... hmm... mos unforgettable one is finale.... wa on the spot learn the dance step and rmb thm.... thn very tired really...
arg... thn b coz of the dance rehearsals.... esp tmr and fri the actual performance..... i ll miss.... 3 tests.... one e maths test.. tmr.... thn cl test... tmr.... cuz tmr 9 am jiu ciao liao mah... thn 3rd... fri after sch jiu ciao... got geog retest after sch mah....
so haix... very troublesome lah... haix... faster tis wk over... thn ll b mor release le.....
thn really gonna concentrate on studies man.... gosh... me is lik suddenly dunno wat i learning lor... haix....
thn hmm... very frustrated... thinking too many things at one time.... so haix.. tis ke lian de genie...... :(
today got another present liao.... one bottle of H2O hahax...

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genie_ng out
@ |10:44 PM|

yoz.... today is my birthday.... worx... hmm... received 4 presents so far haha yap... by alot of ppl... cuz now in the trend is haha share present mah... yap... but hapy ready le... wat counts is in heart mah... yap... thn alot of ppl wish me hapy birthday... tat is the best things... for today? haha yap.... very glad... ty alll of u :D
hmm... but not very hapy stil... very rushy and tiring today......
so much things to do... thn got a maths test... hist quiz.... theroy haven finish... whole piano lesson jus do theory... haven finish yet somemore.... hai yo.... thn entrepreneur... not bad lah.... we UNIKEY get the 2nd position.....
thn yap... ery tiring... fel lik dying....
haix... bdae lik tat... wonder the rest of me being a 15 yr old gal... ll b jus lik today? or rather yest? hmm.. haix... dunno.... dun care.... tiring..... dun wanna think too much.....

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genie_ng out
@ |12:48 AM|
Monday, July 25, 2005

hai yo ah... so many hw.... alot of things to do... tmr a maths test..... thn today alot of hw... thn... hai ya lots to fan..... ggggggggggggggggg.................. gtg... really no time to write much
haix... tmr bdae le.... din fel abit of excitement sia... haha dun care lah.....

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genie_ng out
@ |11:12 PM|
Sunday, July 24, 2005

arx.... stil no time... to elaborate yest thing....
nvm... today one...
haix... today got flu... but now okie le bah...go nlb today tat new one... fri open de.... really very big nice and can say is rather a sucess... very gd... really lik spending tme there... next time lah... in the future... everyday can go liao bah.... cuz i wanna go nafa mah... right after lesson.... can go there liao.... wa really alot to say bout tis lbrary.... very gd..... but i stil fel tat their reference bk shld oso let ppl borrow... they really hav lots of reference bk.... can say many times mor than bks tat can b borrowed...
okie thn.. .hmm... b4 going library with mum... we send hui to her fren de bdae party.... her gd fren jia yi... the 3 of thm ah... hui, jia yi and fiona... still call me "ah ma" jus b cuz tat time i take care of thm lik a nanny? haha yap... whn they saw me ah... they immediately call "ah ma" but i dun wanna join in the party lah... so me and mum go library... haha yap...
okie thn... hmm.... not much liao le....
okie tmr... first day the sub comm duty start... hope my uniform comm is a sucess.... hee hee

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genie_ng out
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